The doctor parade

Page 27 in the series Before the Pirates Came*

The couple’s family doctor recommended a reputable psychologist, a Christian counselor, an appropriate choice since she and Brian were active in the church. Once the psychologist was convinced that Miranda knew and believed the Gospel message, he pronounced her cured, her depressive symptoms never to return.

But since Miranda was a quick study, she listened closely to the doctor at every appointment. She figured out what he would require in order for her to “graduate,” and spoke the Bible story back to him like a parrot perched on his fake leather couch. It’s not that she didn’t want to get well, it’s that she wanted to stop wasting his time and hers. It was a short relationship, and Miranda continued to get worse.

There were many appointments with many doctors. There were doctors in the city and doctors in town, and one whose hourly rate was more per hour than her neighbor’s car payment. There was a nationally acclaimed expert on psychiatric drugs who only wanted to talk about sex.

She saw a young Korean doctor who spoke little English but was quick to prescribe the exact drug the expert rejected. The medication was later determined to make her actual condition worse. Fortunately, the side effects were unbearable and the pills were discontinued before any real harm could be done. The last psychiatrist gestured toward three framed photos of his beautiful children and said he wished he had never become a parent.

During the months prior to the onset of her depression, Miranda was a busy and capable member of the Providence community. She chaired the entertainment committee for the annual Symphony Ball, played golf and tennis with the wives at the club, and published her first newsletter as president of the local Orchid Society.

She gardened, she volunteered, she took classes. Brian found her level of energy astounding. It wasn’t long ago that she was affectionate, sexy, and even teased Brian over dinner, begging him to take her home. Brian was never more in love or more satisfied. Now he was desperate and confused, but his devotion never wavered.

Miranda decorated their lovely home and went shopping till her heart’s content. Actually, she went shopping alot before she became ill, sometimes spending so much that even Brian, with all his money, raised an eyebrow at their credit card statements. But that was okay. He just wanted her to be happy. If buying pretty things would make her feel better, it was okay with him. He just wanted his wife back.

*This story is based on some true events, however, has been fictionalized and all persons appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real people, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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24 Responses to The doctor parade

  1. Debbie says:

    The tale of all the doctors makes me sad. :( A heartbreaking part of Miranda’s story, for sure. But I’m hanging on for the time when her heart is rescued and made new! :)
    God bless you and all that you do each day! love and prayers!

    • Linda says:

      Thanks for your kind words “… all that you do each day.” I pray for patience, patience, patience. God wants me to be a good reflection of His Son so as I work to be a good caregiver, it’s really okay. I’m blessed to be able to say that.

      About all those doctors… On average, it takes six doctors to arrive at a bipolar diagnosis. No one who is manic would ever go for help, so the depressive side is all that they see. Regardless, it’s a precious waste of time for the patient…

      • Linda, I think it took my sister a lot more than 6 doctors. She was 43 before they figured it out! I’m so glad they did, for her and for Miranda. :) Peace, Linda

        • Linda says:

          More than six doctors seems ridiculous, but I know she’s not alone. It’s hard for someone who is manic to go for help when they’re having the time of their lives. Not sure what your sister’s manic episodes were like, but Miranda had some real doozies. Hope she is doing well today.

        • Linda says:

          More than six doctors seems ridiculous, but I know she’s not alone. It’s hard for someone who is manic to go for help when they’re having the time of their lives. Not sure what your sister’s manic episodes were like, but Miranda had some real doozies. Hope she is doing well today.

  2. Elvirah says:

    As they say, there would never be happy ending in life. Every part of life is a new beginning and every time is like a testing period for a person. Miranda is going through such a testing period i guess; she had a great happiness in life which lasted only for a while. Its really difficult for a person to visit so many doctors for the treatment and i hope she finds a way get out of this depression. And i also liked the way Brian took it, he proved a very good husband for her. Looking forward to read your next post.

    • Linda says:

      Yes, this was definitely a testing period. Miranda should have prayed like in your story about the man in the boat. But she trusted all the wrong things to be happy, like money and alcohol. Thanks for reading… I’m enjoying your blog, too. ; )

  3. Theresa says:

    I want to skip ahead. :(

    But I am so glad you have written this.


  4. Miranda has some issues and we readers love reading about them.

    I’m ready for more.

    • Linda says:

      Thanks for reading, Larry. I’m thinking about working in a big-happy-cat-on-a-toilet somewhere along the way. : )

  5. Jan says:

    It took many years and many drs. to get a diagnosis, and to find meds that worked. I would rather not take them, but I know the edge of the abyss is always looming, and that I will be on some kind of meds the rest of my life, if I want that life to be long and even tolerable, let alone happy. I’m so glad Miranda finally finds her way.

    • Linda says:

      I completely agree about taking medication when it’s needed. I’ve had Christians tell me that my meds for bipolar disorder could be eliminated if I prayed about it, and I’m sick because my faith isn’t strong enough.

      Yes, it’s better to stay away from the edge. Glad you’re doing well these days. ; )

      • ann says:

        Pardon me for jumping in here, but I find that pretty frightening too. I was once told God has not answered a particular prayer because I have ‘unconfessed sins’ or unforgiveness in my heart… Seriously?

        Nothing about His ways /thoughts being higher than mine
        Nothing about His timing being perfection
        Nothing about His grace being sufficient as I tackle the thorn
        Nothing about asking what His will is for me in this situation…

        (And here I was thinking He died for ALL my sins… hmmm. A little knowlege is indeed dangerous ;-) )

        Thanks for always inspiring me to think, Dear Linda. I know you are praying. I can feel it. Thank you so much.


        • Linda says:

          I understand how bad it feels to hear those kinds of comments (accusations?)… been there. It makes it sound as if God likes toying with us and keeping us guessing. That’s not the God we know. On the contrary, with all you do to honor Him with your blog, your encouragement, lifting up fellow believers in prayer, (and probably much more : )) how could He not delight in you as His own special daughter?

          I agree that God doesn’t reject a particular prayer for the reasons that your friends (and Job’s friends) have offered. I agree with all the Biblical truths you listed, and also because He has something even better in store for you… more than you can dream of or ask for. (loosely Eph 3:20)

          Yes, I am still praying for you…not only for your “project” but that you would be happy and content in the meantime. Someone prayed that for me once and it made all the difference.

          Blessings to you too, my friend : )

  6. .endtransmission. says:

    I am reminded of a whimsical cartoon-like painting of a wispy acrobat walking the high wire for the first time…. The little pink umbrella leaning this way and that, as the acrobat performer leans and winces, trying to find her balance. Hopefully, there is a net.

  7. ann says:

    Thanks for sharing, Linda

    I found myself wondering out loud why pain is able (read ‘allowed’ ) to strike at the heart of beautiful relationships…. I guess that wouldn’t happen in a perfect world?

    I too find the story of the doctors unsettling and frightening. I know of a case where an individual who attempted suicide was being prescribed meds, the side effects of which include suicidal ideation … :-(

    I don’t get it. I may never get it either.

    Hopefully Miranda will be well soon. (Hopeful thinking).

    Blessings much.

    • Linda says:

      Hi Ann… The thought of someone attempting suicide because their medication makes them feel WORSE is horrifying. I’m sad for anyone who is newly diagnosed and has to face the maze of doctors and pills ahead of them.

      This may not be a “perfect world,” but if we start keeping track by “perfect moments,” there are all kinds of things to be thankful for. It all adds up. : )

  8. Ferd says:

    I’m certain bipolar disorder is way misdiagnosed/underdiagnosed. What a long, hard road for Miranda! :-(

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