Are you Elizabeth Taylor?

Page 26 from the series Before the Pirates Came*

Miranda was not Elizabeth Taylor, that much she knew. Aside from going to parties with her college boyfriend, Miranda had never even been on a real date. In high school she was not cute, not popular, and never went to the prom. The low self-esteem that spiralled from her lack of status would haunt her and affect her choices for years to come.

Her social skills were awkward and limited.  Academically, however, Miranda excelled.  She had a habit of correcting teachers when they made mistakes in class.  For example,  since the Hartford Convention played a significant role in the War of 1812, she decided Mr. Black should call it by its right name– Hartford not “Hartsford.”  Her teachers were irate, her classmates not impressed.  What Miranda considered a public service only compounded her woes.    

She began to keep a perfume bottle filled with liquor in her locker.  Vodka was a source of comfort and helped her make it through the day.  It was a social life of one, and Miranda eventually accepted her place.  She was very lonely.  No wonder she welcomed the pirates when they came…

So based on her track record as a chronic misfit (and an alcoholic in the making), she knew the odds of being proposed to again and again were nill. Brian was it!  This was her moment!  Miranda was not Elizabeth Taylor–  of course she said yes!  Brian Parker Hall was the perfect catch, not just for her but for any girl who wanted to get married and live a happy life. So she told herself she darn well better be happy

The university had a satellite  campus just outside of Providence. She stopped sitting in the front row and answering all the questions.  She bought trendy new clothes and took extra time with her hair and make-up.  And instead of a worn book bag, she carried this season’s new Gucci tote, with just enough room for a few books and a lipstick . Miranda forced herself to be friendly and outgoing with her classmates until it began to feel natural. Her efforts quickly paid off and she loved her new place in college life.

But sometimes she ran out of steam. It was hard to maintain her social energy and academic high.  When her sparkle began to fade she feared it was gone for good… that her old lonely high school days would return.  And that’s when the depression began to set in…

*This story is based on some true events, however, has been fictionalized and all persons appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real people, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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14 Responses to Are you Elizabeth Taylor?

  1. Theresa says:

    You are such a lovely lady, witty, charming, and bright…plus you are discerning, warm, and kind. I have read the thoughts you share and you can be profound. Isn’t it strange how we can be so unaware…so self-condemning? But I can identify I am and always have been an “Amelia Bedelia” to some extent.

    I am going to try to remember to recommend your blog to some of the teenage girls that come over to the house a lot. You would make a wonderful counselor.


    • Linda says:

      Thank you, Theresa. Your comment means alot.

      I know there are alot of writers, thinkers, and artists who have an impact on people because they’ve struggled along the way. I like the verse in 2Corinthians where is says that God comforts us “in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those with any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. (2Cor 1:3-4, NIV) Also (as you know) being creative just feels good.

      Yes, I would love to be a counselor some day.

      “Amelia Bedilia”…haven’t thought about her in ages! Hugs… : )

  2. Over the years, I’ve met all kinds of believers who have suffered from low esteem and depression. A few of them have been like Miranda, late bloomers. Thank God, the Lord loves late bloomers and has plans for them.

    I’m ready for the next page.

    • Linda says:

      I’ve retraced those steps many times and yes, it had to be that way. It’s amazing Miranda even survived… glad she did. ; )

      Larry, have you ever run into this writing challenge? I’m working on three different themes (within the Miranda story) all at once. They will eventually connect, but right now they do not. Am I setting myself up for a big mess? Is it better to write from beginning to end? I’d appreciate your thoughts…

  3. Debbie says:

    You are doing so well, giving us some background on Miranda, helping us see why she made some of the decisions she did. Boy, can I relate. Saw your question to Larry, and praying that this will all fall into place as you write. I have never written anything this complex with all the story lines that need to connect. I think you have an advantage here on your blog, in that you don’t have to concern yourself too much with each post dovetailing into the next. Each can be separate and yet still moving the big story along.
    God bless you and your writing . . .and future counseling!
    love and prayers!

    • Linda says:

      Future counselor… ha ha… we’ll see. There may be a season for that… something to pray about! ; )

      The challenge to piece it all together had created a real jumble in a way, but also a chance to write with unbridled creativity. Whatever I’m in the mood for becomes the story of the day. I’m almost 50 so there’s lots of material to choose from.

      As always, thanks for your encouragement! Hugs… : )

  4. Elvirah says:

    For a girl like Miranda, who suffered from low self-esteem and never been on a real date so far, would be difficult to contain such a big thing all of a sudden. And who would say ‘No’ to such a proposal or make a person like Brian wait. If i were in such a situation, i would do the same like she did. The story’s definitely getting interesting.

    • Linda says:

      Yes, it was a hard proposal to say no to. Would they have a better chance at happiness if they had dated longer? Too late now. She’ll just have to see what comes next.

  5. Jan says:

    Writing in episodes allows you to jump all over the map, at your whim. If you were publishing a book, your editor would probably pressure you to tell the story in more linear fashion, but telling the way you are is projecting something special from your heart. Keep writing!

    • Linda says:

      I’m really glad you brought that up. It reads better on paper, with actual chapters. Since people don’t usually read a book one page at a time (with one day in between) it makes it hard to follow . I’m struggling with this one… Thanks for your input. : )

  6. .endtransmission. says:

    In light of the recent admission of teen band love, I shall also point out that back then, you were pretty much the “It Girl”. The girl who had “It.” Completely out of everyone’s league, and far too stunning to be approached by us mere mortals. And now? See Fur Winter Hat picture for evidence. I’d like a signed full color 8×10 of that one, please. I believe you know where to send it. ;-)

    • Linda says:

      “It Girl?” Whose blog-book are you reading these days?! You know that’s not how the story goes…

      Mere mortals. Ha. That is such a cop out, e.t… You should have asked. It might have changed history…

      Fwiw, the hat is authentic winter-of-’97 from the Seeking Miranda Collection. Thanks for noticing… ; )

  7. Ferd says:

    Even if Miranda might have been exceptional by the standards of “mere mortals,” that’s not how she felt. For whatever reason, she felt lonely, misfit, not belonging. Maybe it was the depression all along. Who knows. But it does help me understand why Miranda made that choice. Our feelings are way more powerful than our logic.

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